The Birthday 2011

the birdpark, ducks, walking in the pouring rain, the tradition, the Plan B chocolate cake, the square phone. <3

one of the best birthday ever.

Because this quote describes me perfectly

This is for the girls who have the tendency to stay up all night listening to music that reminds them of their current situation. Who hide their fears, hurt, pain and tears under their smiles and laughs all on a daily basis. The girls who wear their hearts on their sleeve. The girls who pray things will workout just once and they’ll be satisfied. The girls who scream and cry into their pillows because the rest of the world fails to listen. The girls who have it hard but don’t let anyone know that. The girls who may never have it easy. The girls who have so many secrets but will never tell a soul. The girls who have regrets and mistakes as a daily moral. The girls who don’t always win, who may never win. The girls who stay up all night thinking about that one boy wondering if he’ll ever notice her. The girls who don’t get what they get and don’t throw a fit. The girls who take life as it comes, hoping it’ll get easier somewhere down the road. The girls who love with all their hearts but always get broken. This is for the real girls. This is for you.

Cause I Miss You

It feels like it was only yesterday I saw you smile and saw that gleam in your eye when you saw me, and the way your eyes danced when you laughed. I loved when you took my hand and held it every time I sat next to you. Our private jokes that would send me into a fit of laughter always made me feel better. When you never complained about the pain of living with cancer for 5 years and when you fought through the pain with that laugh and smile, I looked up to you in admiration and awe. How you would let me play games with you, map out your veins, always made me feel special but most of all, when you believed in me, showed me you cared, and showered me with sweets, I felt on top of the world.

I know your shining down on me from heaven, like so many friends we've lost along the way, and I know eventually we'll be together, one sweet day.

Yours always and forever, Nit. <3

Much Ado About Nothing

or M.A.A.N as we liked to call it.

I miss M.A.A.N. I miss how close we were, how happy we were as a team, how well we worked together, and how we put our differences aside just for that play, how we laughed and we cried as a team, how we ate together, how we clicked, and how we were there for each other, how everytime we got together we would make the most noise and have the most fun, how it felt like a family, how we would be in character anywhere and everywhere.

* I miss crossing the road with Hero.
* I miss giggling over Don John's "hotness"
* I miss being carried by Claudio
* I miss Leonato's hugs and cinnamon buns.
* I miss being the drunk Antonio
* I miss hearing us run our lines
* I miss drying the backdrop with Claudio



but they do say, 'all good things must come to an end'

GIve Me Some Sunshine

okay, i realized i haven't done my new year tradition, so here it is:

First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011! :) okay, so I normally would do a review of my 2010 but this time, I’m doing something different by making it short :P

2010 has been nothing but bittersweet. it had it ups and it had its downs but more downs than ups i must say. lets see..

New years countdown at home, as usual, but the phone conversation made it special.

January; The Balcony. nuff’ said.

February was slow and boring.

March, the Big B happened and I also lost my maternal grandfather.

April, was also slow and boring.

May, ended with me being happy.

June, celebrated my birthday three times with three different groups of people.

July, August, September, consisted of many close friends birthday celebrations, spending time with family.

December I lost my maternal grandmother.

I guess 2010 has been a real whirlwind of emotions and in all that, I lost myself. I watched myself fade away. I distanced myself from everyone, became more reserved and kept to myself and was constantly angry with myself. The green monster constantly consumed my thoughts. I became very emotionally unstable. oh, and the best part? I still feel all that.

2011, please be good.

and I’d do anything to just feel better.

Let me hear You say

I forgive you, I love you. You are mine, take my hand

Go in peace, sin no more, beloved one.


Standing by your door, knowing that You’ll say

I forgive you, I love you. You are mine, take my hand

Go in peace, sin no more, beloved one.

yes, i know this is about 2 months late, but whateves :P

this is my 2010, in a photoscape :)



New Years Countdown, 2010/2011 :)

You're Not Sorry

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
Ive been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking well be fine again,
But not this time around

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Couldve loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause its worked each time before

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade


You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry.
No.