this one's for you, thata

thata,

thank you

- for being the man who had a smile bigger that your face every time i saw you.
- for making my everything, everytime i saw your face light up when you saw us
- for being the person who would cycle to the shop just to get sweets for your grandchildren despite the pain.
- for being the person i looked up to.
- for making me feel like a million bucks.
- for making me believe i can do anything.
- for being the only grandfather i had
- for making me feel like i meant something.

the man who made me feel like i meant something is gone.

seeing you lying in that white box
holding back from screaming at you to wake up
though your gone, your memories live on
i love you thata, and i'll miss you, always and forever.

you wont see me graduate like you always wanted

Rest In Peace Anthonysamy Pillai <3 10th January 1926-25th March 2010
just remembering this past 3 days brings tears to my eyes


now its Daniel, Nicole and Nicholas and turn to have the best time with you thata.

Love, Nithiya.
i never got to say goodbye

no more "selamat pagi thata" "siapa budak melayu ini" "come here, i give you sweets. dont tell your amma ah" sharing secret smiles when amachi was complaining about something. joking about everything and anything.


I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad.

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly.

The day you slipped away.....
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why.
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back

sweet silver lining

Lucas Eugene Scott is the epitome of sexy :)

shine your light

movie reviewwwww

movie - alice in wonderland

the movie was good!
graphics = awefreakingsome.
storyline = interesting twist to to the classic fairytale.
cast = freaking talented.
favourite character = HATTER! :) and the red queen.
favourite quotes = off with the head
Have you any idea why a raven is like a writing desk?

so all in all the movie was good. tim burton is pure genius :D


31. i found i'm scared to know your always on my mind.

wild at heart

after watching the episode where Nathan and Haley get married. season 3 episode 22 :) i decided to blog what i felt was love, since everyone at the wedding had an opinion on love.

love, is giving your heart and soul to that one person.

its about being like an open book to that one person, where there are no secrets, there are no lies

love is about standing up for that one person, wrong or right.

love is fighting with that one person and then saying sorry even if your not wrong cause you just wanna be with that person

love is when that person makes or breaks your day.

and the last one,

love, is love and should never be defined :)



30. i love you

i wanna hold your hand

Joanna Nithiya realizes that phone conversations with Sheril Samantha Bustaman always end up with me laughing really hard! :D and stop recording me singing missy!!!

:D

keep thinking

somewhere along, she lost herself.


29. doing that thing you do.

we talked all night about the rest of our life

cooler than the flipside of my pillow!

monday rain

people ask me why i watch one tree hill and why am i crazy about the show.

1. its awesome.
2. its awesome
3. its awesome

lol, okay seriously, one tree hill actually is one of my remedies. it tells me something about life with every episode. it introduces me to awesome music (Kate Voegele, the Wreckers, Anna Nalick). and i dunno, its just something about it that seems so real. its really does eplain a few things o me about life and makes me think.

so there you have it :)


on a completely unrelated note, rascall flatts is <3

above all.

:)

its only life

joanna nithiya is the queen of happyland again! :)

no more, and i do mean NO MORE emo posts!

life's too short to live it being depressed!

kiss me all night, dont ever let me go.

you know that moment where you look into somebody's eyes and you feel them staring into your soul and the whole world goes quiet for a second? Well I don't



I know you're leaving in the morning, when you wake up, leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream




i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken and the one that that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own.

shut the world out

"mummy, daddy i want to be a pop star"
"SIT BACK DOWN"

its 2am and i'm wide awake, no venti needed :P so i decided to blog.

well, life has been pretty much an emotional roller coaster, one day up, next day down.

nothing much going on in life.

cause i hate the way you make or break my day.

hello depression, we haven't met in a while. its a pleasure to have you back again.

do you think we went to far?

i dont! :) so i say all those people who do are just party poopers :P

what somebody like you doing in a place like this?

well, my weekend was eventful. how was yours?

baby tell me whats your story, i aint shy don't you worry.

have i mentioned that the new it song is if we ever meet again :)

my MP3 is not my friend anymore! :P

the sexy hard drive is now called BAY so its now,

• bay
• cookie
• purple people eater

one night here, and the next day gone.

2am semi-solid plan.

4.30 checks tickets "dude, we're really doing this!"

laughlaughlaughgigglegigglegiggle

the first noel -.-
Someone once told me that nothing is Random, and that Randomness and Fate are the same thing. (P - not a chance in hell)

71, 55 and 22km

7.30pm spots jusco "dude, WE'RE HERE!"

rosal!!!!

!SUPRISE! that FAILED thanks to some UNhappyperson :P

apple juice + spoon.

alexxx!!!!!!!! :)

the night ended separately.

the morning after.

WAKEEEE UP!!!!!!!!!!! :)

8.30am do we hafta go back?

9.30am dude, we're back! what the hell! hmmph! :(



it still seems surreal to me.

everything is oposite.

i pray no one has to feel that horrid empty hollow feeling in their life. ever.

gramps, get well soon! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

i can't remember and i'm falling apart.

finished with dear john. first time crying like that over a book.

i think i lost my zest for life. i couldn't even eat just now.

need you now.

okay, so the best friend said my blogs so emo :P

no more emo posts, okay scratch that, i'mma try to be less emo.

<3

my lentern sacrifice this year is food. so its 1 full meal a day for me. and taking care of dadeh.




28. I wonder if I ever crossed your mind, for me it happens all the time

its a quarter after 1 and i'm a little drunk.

you were serenity, you took away the bad days.