i'm falling apart, barely breathing

"Because we could all use a little help sometimes, ya know? That feeling that everything is going to be okay, and that there is going to be someone there to help make sure of that."


32. i miss what we could have been.

obvious

We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby

livin' the dream

Funny how things change
yet they always stay the same
and the simple things in life
just get tossed into the flames
and I've been down that road before
where you just gotta roll the bones
I don't have much money in my pocket
but I didn't leave none at home

Here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
And I'll keep livin' the life
Living the dream on my own.

A million roads to go and
A million roads behind me
I've heard so many stories told
But the good ones never find me
I ain't got no crystal ball
that's showing me the way
I don't know which way I'm going
But I'll get there someday singing

Here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
And I'll keep livin' the life
Living the dream on my own.

And after all I've been through
There is nothing left to prove
I'm starting to believe
we could all live the dream
One day at a time
Yes I'm starting to believe
we could all live the dream

Here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
and I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time

Here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
And and I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time

Here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known
Here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
And I'll keep livin' the life
Living the dream on my own.

moon so bright,

"our story has three parts: a beginning, a middle and an end.
& although this is the way all stories unfold; i still cant believe ours didnt go on forever.."

rarw :)

good time, good times XD

one day,

had to re-vamp the blog to change my header -.-


but yea :)

alright, so i finally watched Dear John with the bestest friend. movie was awesomely depressing. like seriously. i wanted to CRY. like how i cried like a baby for the book. its so freaking sweet!! god!

and if ya'll hasnt heard,

Joanna Nithiya is a jiwang, was always a jiwang and will always be a jiwang (i know someone who would be really really happy with this statement) :P

mushhhy <3

when the world caves in

Joanna Nithiya is OKAY! :)




31. all of a sudden i miss you.

in my head.

RANT!

one,

makes me feel like I'm an incompetent, doesn't know anything, all she does is sit in front of the computer, never does anything in the house person.
"that's all you ever do. sit in front of the computer"

the other,

makes me feel like a complete failure, a screw up, an ass, a dumb midget who doesn't know shit and i would want to be related to her but unfortunately i am.
"i dunno why they let you do it. you'll definitely screw it up. like everything else"

and, the one who means the most to me,

finds ways to show me she thinks i am stupid, embarrassed to even be associated with me, never fails to remind me of the stupid person i am. and shows clear favoritism.
"I'm embarrassed to even say you are my daughter." (her words, not mine)


and people wonder why i have such low self esteem, really..

i was never given the chance to do anything i wanted.
driving.
dancing.
singing.
performing.
hanging with them.

somewhere along, i learned to shut it out. doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.


its not supposed to get to me but it does.




*breaths* that felt better.

she's nothing,

i want to blog but have nothing to blog about. i will be back.