but not goodbye

last sunday, something father simon said that keeps ringing in my ear,


"where do i stand in my journey of faith"


i have always been a good catholic girl that my parents raised me to be. the "go to church every sunday. never miss sunday school" type. but during confirmation camp night, something hit me.

"why do you go to church? do you go to church because you believe in God and know you need him or just because that's how you've been brought up, to go to church every sunday and that God is magnificent?"

and ever since then, i have never stopped questioning my faith.

*its all in my head. its all in my head*

I dont

bawled my freaking eyes out.




i feel we're slipping away.

in my world

You know I always stay up without sleeping
And think to myself
"Where do I belong forever
In whose arms, the time and place?"

never knew what i was missing

updaaaaaates! :D

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the best weekend so far was spent with the parents - daddy (adderlymrcookiemonster), mummy(The Bestest friend Tengku) and the sister(NAD si penguin!) - from watching despicable me again and spending the whole day as a "family", to dinner with rosal(the godfather) and adi(abadabdoooo) and fiqi and then jingbanging with rish :)

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dear you,

no more getting my hopes up.


love, me.